Review: If I Die Before I Wake by Emily Koch

Hi Munchworms!

If I Die Before I WakeIt’s a new day, so time for a new review!

When I came across this book on NetGalley, I was sold immediately. The cover jumped at me, grabbed my attention and made sure I fell for it completely as soon as I read the blurb.


Everyone believes Alex is in a coma, unlikely to ever wake up. As his family debate withdrawing life support, and his friends talk about how his girlfriend Bea needs to move on, he can only listen.

But Alex soon begins to suspect that the accident that put him here wasn’t really an accident. Even worse, the perpetrator is still out there and Alex is not the only one in danger.

As he goes over a series of clues from his past, Alex must use his remaining senses to solve the mystery of who tried to kill him, and try to protect those he loves, before they decide to let him go.

If that hasn’t sparked your interest in the slightest, then I’ll have to try and encourage you myself because this book is absolutely amazing.

The whole story is told from Alex’ point of view and he’s in a coma. He knows what’s going on around him, hears and understands what his visitors and caretakers are saying. He can feel, he can still smell. But he can’t move, at all.
Being in that situation, he’s in all but a good place to find out what happened to him. He picks up bits and pieces throughout the book that help him. As his family is slowly giving up hope of him ever waking up, he has to fight to stay alive and find out how he ended up in the hospital.
Knowing only what Alex knows, you’re easily pulled into his life, his mind and he doesn’t let you go until you’ve read the final word on the last page. It really is an emotional roller-coaster from start to finish.
Honestly, I sat there, staring, for quite some time. Processing what had happened, how Alex conquered a piece of me so easily.

Loving someone means knowing when to let them go? Bullshit. You don’t let them go. You fight for them. Let them be the ones to choose whether or not they want you.

As for the writing, I have to give Emily Koch a huge applause. A giant one!
The way this book is written sucked me right in. The details she implements are amazing and made me think a lot about others in a coma. How hard it has to be for them to hear, feel, smell but not being able to communicate with anyone whatsoever.
Koch succeeds at making If I Die Before I Wake a detailed story that, at the end, comes together in a beautiful, yet unexpected way.

I was about to find out that we all have an instinct to defend ourselves when we are put in danger. Even when there is very little we can do to fight, we still try.

I honestly could not find one negative! Except that I’ll definitely be on the look-out for more of her books – as if I don’t have plenty of books to read.

If I Die Before I Wake is a beautiful, heart-wrenching story that will leave you wrung-out emotionally.


Because Alex, more than once, points out that he misses his food, that he hates the smell of it because it confronts him with his current condition… I’m not going to put any munches here, out of respect. It’s the least this book deserves.

This book is being published January 11th, so head on over to, BookDepository or any other site to pre-order it! You can always add it to your Goodreads-TBR as well.



I received this eARC through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. I’m not being compensated in any way.
Quotes are taken from an unfinished copy and might differ from the finished book.

15 thoughts on “Review: If I Die Before I Wake by Emily Koch

    1. It definitely was!! One of the books that’s a bit outside of my regular genres but I loved it anyway!
      I don’t even want to imagine being like that. And hoping your head decides to drop aside so maybe your eyes open that tiny bit so you can see some vague shapes.. Giving me shivers just thinking about it really.

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  1. Hi! You got me with the blurb, but your review made me even more curious… It really seems an interesting plot idea and it’s original. That’s for sure. I hope to read it, even if my TBR is full and I really don’t need to add new books to it!!!

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