THIS BOOK BROKE ME IN THE BEST WAY ~ The Sky Is Mine by Amy Beashel


The Sky is MineTITLE: The Sky Is Mine
AUTHOR: Amy Beashel

RELEASED: February 6, 2020
PUBLISHER: Rock the Boat
FORMAT: ARC – [AD; thanks to Rock the Boat!]

GENRE: YA Contemporary

TRIGGERS: Fat-shaming, physical abuse, mental abuse, domestic abuse, blackmail, rape, sex / kissing without consent, talk about animal abuse [very short], abortion
REPS: LGBTQIA+ side character

No one has ever asked Izzy what she wants. She’s about to change all that…

In a house adept at sweeping problems under the carpet, seventeen-year-old Izzy feels silenced. As her safety grows uncertain, Izzy know three things for sure. She knows not to tell her mother that Jacob Mansfield has been threatening to spread those kinds of photos around college. She knows to quiet the grief that she’s been abandoned by her best friend Grace. And, seeing her mother conceal the truth of her stepdad’s control, Izzy also knows not to mention how her heart splinters and her stomach churns whenever he enters a room.

When the flimsy fabric of their life starts to unravel, Izzy and her mum must find their way out of the silence and use the power in their voices to rediscover their worth.

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The moment I heard about this book, I knew I had to read it. So I requested it. And then I cried happy tears when, for the first time ever, a physical ARC request was approved because I got a copy in the mail! That alone already made this book special but.. It ended up being way more special for a whole other bunch of reasons. [So, thank you thank you thank you to Rock the Boat!]

The good

As is custom in my reviews, I want to address the writing first. Especially since it took some getting used to on my part. One of my first notes when reading this book consisted of me pointing out that the sentences are sometimes very long. It made Izzy’s voice a rambling mess in my head. The thing is, though, that I got used to it, I got used to Izzy and it stopped bothering me before reaching the halfway point of the story. So, yes, it took some getting used to, but it also shows how Izzy – our main character – has her own, unique voice.

Then.. What to talk about next.. I’m honestly having a very hard time writing this review because this book contains so, so much and was such a heart-wrenching and hard read. It’s hard to put into words how The Sky Is Mine made me feel. Yes, I had to stop reading often. Very often. But that wasn’t a bad thing at all. Some of you know, others will now know how rape is a part of my past. I am a survivor so reading books about rape culture is tough for me, always. But I love seeing it represented in books and I love how it makes me feel like I turned out okay. How I reclaimed myself. How I moved past it as much as I possibly could.

But that’s not the only hard thing that’s mentioned. On the contrary. I mentioned it all in my triggers at the top of this review, so I won’t be repeating it all. The one thing I do want to highlight is the abuse. Not only physical, but also mental. Not only by others, but also by a person living with Izzy. It’s like the hard subjects, the harder parts of life are everywhere in this book and.. I truly love it for that.

Although the focus isn’t on Grace, Izzy’s best friend, I did appreciate her person. Apart from her, and her girlfriend, being queer, she also has a bigger part in this story. Yes, at first you might not like her. I know I didn’t. But we also see her growth throughout the story and by the end of it, I ended up loving her. Although not at much as Izzy.
Then there’s Izzy’s mom. Without spoiling anything, let’s just say the admiration is here. I feel like I see too little of strong parents, of growing parents in books. Most of the time they’re just there – sort of. Not in The Sky Is Mine though.

five stars
I guess all I have to say is.. I loved every word of this book. It’s a tough read to get through, but it’s one that’s needed in this world. It’s one needed to realize you can overcome things when they don’t seem like it at all. The Sky Is Mine tore my heart straight out, smashed it to pieces, had me crying and had me feeling relieved and happy at the end of it. Definitely an emotional roller coaster ride worth taking.

What’s a book that made you feel all the feelings?
Do you read books you know might be triggering? Why?
Let’s talk emotions!



13 thoughts on “THIS BOOK BROKE ME IN THE BEST WAY ~ The Sky Is Mine by Amy Beashel

  1. I suppose I’m lucky in the fact that I’m not necessarily triggered by things in books or other media, but I relate to issues of insecurity or anxiety. But I think that if I did have abuse or something else potentially harmful in my past, then I would want to be sure that I felt in a good enough mental space to be able to read and appreciate the story without causing issues for my own health and recovery. But I do think stories like this are massively important, for both survivors and for people who have not found ourselves in that situation but still would like to understand friends or family who might have experienced something similar.

    This is a great review, Kathy.

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    1. That’s definitely lucky! And exactly. Before going into certain books, I really need to make sure I’m in the right mood for them / head space. It’s one of the reasons why Brigid Kemmerer’s Call It What You Want & Courtney Summer’s Sadie are still on my TBR. I simply haven’t felt up to reading those yet.

      Thanks, Dani!


    2. About as close as I’ve gotten to being triggered was when I started reading Don’t Read the Comments by Eric Smith, and Divya and her mom were dealing with the fallout of a nasty divorce, and I related to that so much that I was crying while reading the beginning. My parents had a really nasty divorce a couple years ago. So I related heavily to the situation but it wasn’t something as potentially damaging as some topics to others.


    3. Totally understand that would affect you! But, as you say, there’s a difference between being affected by something and being absolutely triggered and pushed in a dangerous mental place when reading something. 🙂 I do hope you’re a bit more okay with it now, though! My parents got a divorce almost ten years ago, but I never even remotely suffered because of it. My father and I simply never got along so it was more of a relief. Something a lot of people don’t understand since it’s the norm for divorces to be a “bad thing”.


    4. There are times when I get sad or mad about the situation, usually when I’m having some sort of home or car repair situation. I was so used to turning to my dad for help, and after everything he put us through, we have zero contact with him. So, he doesn’t know my fiance, actually might not even know that I’m married. My brother will be walking me down the aisle and then doing the father/daughter dance with me at the wedding. I just have moments where it hits me that he chose to lie and cheat, and then he chose to walk away from us after almost 30 years. There’s something missing in me now and I’m still getting used to the absence.

      But my mom is a lot better now that it’s over, and my fiance is fantastic about just being there and supporting me; we definitely support each other through good times and bad, so I know I’m lucky to have such a great life partner.

      But I was such a daddy’s girl for 28 years, so the past 3 years have felt very different.

      I think for my family the divorce was a nasty one, but overall it was needed and a good thing. I know things were emotionally not good, and now we’re getting to a better and healthier mental and emotional place.


    5. Although it definitely sucks, I think it’s amazing your brother means that much to you – and vice versa – to walk you down the isle and do the dance! My brother would be weirded out if I asked that of him, I think.
      But I can see how it can feel like there’s something missing. I don’t have that problem, but I know my brother does miss our father at times. And I’m sure Jamie will one day realize he doesn’t have the greatest of grandfathers – on both sides. I’m hoping he’ll be okay with it by then but who knows what kind of influence it can have on a child..

      Good thing your mom is doing better as well! My mom was depressed after the divorce went through and it lasted for years. Even to the point of me having to shout at her to start -doing- things again instead of just work, sleep, eat and sit on the couch all day. It took a lot of support and talking to get her out and about but she did it eventually. And she now knows she’s definitely way better off without the guy in our lives.

      Support in family – and partners – is such an important thing! That’s something I’ve come to realize more and more with everything that happened the past two years. I’m happy you found someone worthy of you, Dani! And I’m sure you’re more than worthy of him as well.

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    6. My brother and I aren’t really all that close, most of the time. We barely talk, but when we are on the same page it’s like we’re thick as thieves. I don’t think he would have let anyone else walk me down the aisle, especially when my mom said she didn’t want to do it because she just wanted to be the mother of the bride.

      I think what will matter for Jamie is the people who are there in his life. He’ll grow up knowing the people who care about him and make space for him in their lives…and he’ll see the people who aren’t.

      Absolutely. Having supportive friends/family/life partner is immensely important. I mean, I had to wait until I was almost 29 years old to find the right partner, but I’m so glad that I did wait, because it has been more than worth it. And especially with this divorce struggle, I’ve seen which family members really care and which ones were just going through the familial obligation motions. A lot of the past few years has been me realizing which people in my life actually want to be there and which ones are just sort of there. I’ve come to realize and appreciate my worth and value, and I have started to keep my circle small and close. It has been very freeing.


  2. Fantastic review Kathy! And it’s just the kind of stories that I love! Plus congrats on your physical ARC!


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