If you’ve been following me for a while, you probably noticed how I’ve suddenly not been posting like I used to. I was back on track and then my blog just went poof apart from the scheduled posts and reviews I had prepared. And… Well… it’s time to talk about the reasons why because I’ve always been open about my life.
The thing is… I’ve been wanting to talk about certain things in this post for a while now, but I simply couldn’t because I know family members read my blog and it wasn’t my place to ‘tell’ them certain things. Now they know, so I’m free to share with all of you. Finally.
The biggest thing in my life right now, is how G, my partner, has been struggling with gender dysphoria. We’re still not sure where their path is going to take them, but they’re taking all the time and space possible to figure that out. Obviously, it’s been hard on everything in our lives. Only when something like gender dysphoria is something you personally have to deal with, does it become more and more clear how the community, the world isn’t quite ready for something like that. Isn’t as open-minded as we would hope.
In any case, G is figuring out who they are and I’m doing my best to support their every choice and be there for them in every way I can – which isn’t always as easy since this obviously has an impact on me as well.
The fear for Jamie is something I’m struggling with most since I’m scared of the things he’ll hear or have to go through because of G’s possible transition. I hate that I have to fear something like that but.. it’s the way this freaking world works and it sucks.
Anyway. That’s it for that topic. If you want to talk about it, if you’ve been through or are going through something similar, feel free to contact me anywhere. I’m here.
As for the other reason I’m being very absent and… will remain absent on my blog… That’s because I’ve been very busy setting up a freelancing business as a text corrector – manuscripts and such. With all my time going to my actual job, Jamie, my family and now freelancing as well, my blog has taken a huge blow.
It’s come to the point where I simply need to ‘remove’ myself from my blog so I can stop feeling guilty about neglecting it. Which is mainly the reason for this post. I don’t know when and if I’ll ever come back to Books & Munches. I love my blog and it’s been such a huge part of my life for three years now, but… Sometimes things have to change and this is one of them.
I want to be able to provide for my family without having to answer to someone else, which is why I now want to invest as much energy in my freelancing as I possibly can. I’ve only just started and we all know starting something like that is the most energy-draining. Especially since I’m combining everything right now. I can’t possibly resign from my job without having another income. So, basically, the next couple of months if not year, is going to be hard and tiring.
It makes sense for me to ‘sacrifice’ my blog because of it.
I know I have ARC’s left to read and review, and I hope I’ll find the time to actually do that. You can imagine how I barely have time to read now as well, hah. I need to contact publishers, I need to send out more emails and whatnot.
Basically, I’m calling it a day for my blog right now. For now, maybe. Forever, possibly. I don’t even know. I just know that I want to end this chapter for now so I don’t have to feel guilty about neglecting it like I have been doing these past couple of months.
Anyway. That was a little all over the place. There’s one thing I still need to do and that’s thanking every single one of you. The bookish community is one that’ll always remain dear to me. The people in the bookish blogging community are amazing, welcoming and.. I’ve found so many people I had amazing conversations with. I’m thankful for the way my blog has grown over the years. I never, ever imagined having such a following on here as I do. It’s baffling, really.
I understand if you’re now like ‘unfollow’, because I don’t even know if and when I’ll be back. Just know that even if you do unfollow my blog, I’m still grateful for the support you gave me during my blogging time. Books & Munches has been an amazing journey and that’s all because of you.
I love you. I thank you. You’re all amazing.
If I forgot to address something or explain something, feel free to ask.